I fall in

Platonic love with beautiful people, usually not celebrities but real people,
the people who I admire,
I'm not sure exactly if this is a normal practice of any generation, but while at camp, I obsessed over another camper, she was beautiful, and I watched her and wanted to just burrow within her brain and be her, she seemed such an enigma, so mysterious, I felt so plain and fake beside her.
but we talked, and it turned out she admired me too, so maybe I need to believe in myself a bit more, I still idolize her, I hope we can be friends, and I think it may happen, which is refreshing, I need people I admire to be around me more.
and then there are people on the internet, who I somewhat know who acquaintances. Well more like one girl
but I saw her page, and every once and while I'll go to her page and read her blog, she seems so exotic. So big city
which is silly, I mean we live in the same place, how could she be that more sophisticated, but she is, and one day I hope I will tell her how amazing I think she is
which will probably be weird
we've never met
or talked
but I think I would like it if someone told me they idolized me
or even noticed me
so when someone told me they did today, it felt so good
especially since its someone I admire so much.
I want to make a confession, sometimes I log out and look at your page, because I don't want to seem like a stalker for going on your page every once and while